Who am I?

This blog is well named, as I'm continually finding out more and more with each passing day.

If there's something about me that you have a problem with, talk to me about it. Don't judge me, I prolly don't even realize I'm doing it, or that the results are bad. Talking about it behind my back only hurts. If I've done anything to offend anyone or done anything inappropriate I apologize right now, right here.
Believe me when say this has been a very confusing time in my life.

"Iron sharpens iron" I think it's happening in my life at this moment. Maybe this is part of the purpose of being here with all of you. Maybe I needed it. I know I needed it. A frigid blast of air to knock the breath out of my song, because it's not the one I'm supposed to sing.

Everything's great, she's got a smile on her face,
Everything's fine, everyday's another good time
Laugh with all her friends, talk long after day light ends
It's all good why does she pretend?

Lay the mask aside, afraid of what's inside
What if people see, what is really me?
Play the roll act like you're in control until you shatter
What's the matter?

I'm perfect, my life has no defect
They'll think nothings wrong if I just sing my perfect song
Things couldn't be better if I tried, but what if I just lied?
Keep it to myself, make sure that I hide.

Bottle it up, close it up tight, convincing myself everything is alright
Don't share it or cry, carry it inside till you fall
You can't handle it all

Rain falls down, pieces of me around on the floor
Tape them together, ignore the weather
Problems up on the shelf, I'm only hurting myself
Just break and fall, admit that it's not all okay

Weep cry,
you're dying inside, it brings healing
show what you're feeling


This one still needs an ending